I guess we all feel this way sometimes, and I hate it when it happens for an unknown reason. I've been feeling sad durring the night the last 3 days so far, and I had no idea why, but only grew more and more sad. So, I decided to finally sit and just think of what the problem is.

I couldn't pinpoint one thing, but it came to the conclusion that I have just grown tired of life.
NO! I won't dare commit suicide or anything, it's not THAT serious. But, when I think of it, life has nothing exciting to offer me, or at least I haven't experienced that exciting factor of life yet.

We all only have one, so I want every part of it to count. Yes, the people i know and meet make my life amazing, but I feel there's so much more i could've done.

I hate school so much. Not the institution, but what society does. We learn things everyday. Our minds are there to attempt to understand things; to think. A single institution telling me my comprehension of maths, sciences and English determine my future and acceptance into other institutions is far from what I think true learning is.

School is the least of my problems, but just average conformation to what society demands sickens me.

It's like modern slavery and going against it just spending your life doing things you love WHEN you want goes against that path they pave. I want the perfect opportunity to just do what I want when I want to in life. I'm just too afraid to challenge the masses. I want to travel, but to travel, you need money. To get money, you need a job. To get a great job, chances are you need education under your belt. Great education welcomes pressure. I don't want this.

I know I sound like a spoiled kid who doesn't want to work to live, but that's besides the point. I don't mind working, I just want to work at my own path and pace. Your probably saying, "well, you can still do that". But I don't want society holding me back for not working at the pace they expect me to.

I'm just meh, tired of life. Only a couple of people I can really talk to about this, but of course, they're not around. My bf isn't helping much: " Is it your time of the month?" so meh. Best thing about journals/blogs is I can share my feelings and no one has to give a crap, but they're still there to share.

Have a nice night/day everyone!